Non Sense

Feel like years...

I stay in calm, starring at the moon, the light's really fascinating brightly. Sometimes, when you look at the skies, starring at the clouds, it makes you wonder about how can it become like that, then you're aback with its' light, where exactly it comes from, where the right conclusion of the sun light shoot is. It always makes you wonder, curious, astonish, marvel and even amaze with all the lying thing like that, well that was for me.

Hell like nuts...

I could leave now if I want, I even could take my breath away every when I want, I could stop my beating heart, and I could release my spirit away from my body. Right now, right here in front of all the life, it's just an easy things for me, I'm the only one, The God.

Nature comes old...

Every single thing I saw is saw me back, right the way I stand. They're talking to me, speak to me like every old man in an old folks. Actually, it's not a big damn thing, a lot of people knows it. You know, it feels terrible, fucking mess, your ears just will dizzy, humming hardly 'cause you always hear a lot of bloody different voices stuck in it, they're screaming like an odds.

Human turns god...

I still thinking about it, becoming to be and transform to be. It's like such an old fashioned loop with every better luck that they've build to the very end of their earnings agenda. High and low with every different pressure, one twenty degrees under the dead line. It's not that quite enough until people recognizing what they thought that have to be, or already transform to be, something to another thing, something to something. What's something? Still become another question, a quest of every questioner quote. Like all the kids, I've told you before, a lot of times, replacing and renewing, repeat it again and over again. It's the same thing with shame and ashamed, ember and gambler.

Do you have any better idea? or maybe the question is, is there any better thought? Any better thought about what every word? Why do you care? I mean, why do I care? I care not at the same time I care a lot. Why is all the thing have to discuss? Have they already forgot about every other poet that told their self that they're being able to make a very conclusion of earth words?

I'm nothing...

You're nothing...

They're also nothing...

We're all just a non sense...

I'm lucky at least...

At any rate...

At any let...

At least I try, you know...

What the hell is this non sense all about!!!???

Lovely Lots

===Lovely Lots===

Night comes

Along with less

Lone and mess

Stuck with stress

I can't feel my leg

My stomach get ache

My body feel the edge

I'm blind like lake

It's been along

Not talk not share

With you my wing

My wine my tale

I can't hang like this anymore

But I promise you I could stand

Stay awake while you sleep and role

Put a smile pure with wonder and land

I owe you when I adore

I burn to you when I mind

I love you when you have no fore

What things I could share

Even when I know

I don't deserve to have my last chance

When all the law

Can't trans the word I spend to change

I feel you here

Not the way I see you

Sooner or later dear

I'm not being able to lose you

Not again, even never

To lose you

That's enough

I don't want to say

I love you though

Or fly like wood's way

But I dare to cough

When I find any why

I can't sold or bought

For you my every way

There're millions

Maybe Billions

But nothing could be tons

To lift all this words

To throw all this rose

Away for your pose

My Dear Lovely Lots

---Peter Shaw Lydhanson---

 

Lonely me or for Lonely!

Not a big day today. Just another boring that already passed my life. Now it's leaving me! I wonder, maybe I can get something different, something strange to fill my life with another color of wonderful imagination. I just fall a slept. It's really not easy to be something like that, and Yes, I say it Something!!!I actually really have no idea about what to write here. Since the last time I came here, I just sit in front of the computer and quite. It's Silent! You know, the music were bringing a strange melody to my life, it come pass through my soul, but it's really strange music! I don't know about it.

When you loved someone, can you imagine not being able to hold them, not being able to lived without them, not being able smile to them and even not being able to walk without them? I know it's hard to find something that people dying to know about their other, the one that they love. But when that feeling comes to you, even your own self is not deserve to wanting it to come, it just came it self! What do I write here???

Love is feeling, knowing, needing, bleeding, flying, seeing, drinking, swimming, living, leaving, haunting, dying, killing and killing from staying away from you because I can't leave you and that's why I always want to BE with you! Is that wrong? Or maybe I'm just gone mad to say something like that! Do you know how is it hard to know that you've fallen in love with someone? Passing your Life Introduction to Live Introduction and guide you to your own Love Introduction? Do you know that how hard for me to running away from this feeling? Although I know that I don't even want to love YOU, but it just came it self without notice me at all! What a words~! Even an A means a lot for people who deeply fallen in Love with Someone! 

A means a lot! Ask that word a question, what do you get? Do you Love me? Do you even know that I'm dying to know that I love You or not? I'm sick maybe because of You!!!

I Love you just the way that Rose that be able to staying alive weather in the Ice, as same as that stone that being able to be so perfectly amazing of a wonderful creation of human made to be a Diamond Ring! Can you feel it? Can you even figure out about it? Can you know how hard it is to staying away from a Love like that? A Love that always filling your soul away? Can You LONE? (Lonely I mean, I'm just lonely) Who the hell is fucking care about that?

How can it's become a reality when your self is staying away for the reality? I have no idea about it! But at least I know that I'm trying to be in love only with my own wife! At least I try! My wife always leave me 3 cigarettes with a black coffee and a note! She said she always love me! At least I have that... ^ ^

And I love you too my Lovely Wife!

Thanks to you for reading my blog, it's just wasting time reading such a useless post like this! I have nothing to share I just can put all inside something here to be words on white page!